The truth...

I interrogated him today. He deny telling her in the first place. However, he said that he told another guy, and he does not know the girl. Doesn't he knows that once the secret is out, the wind will come and sweep it away, and all is lost, as wherever the wind travels, there the secret will go. I really don't know what i feel now...angry? No, that's not right. Sad?? No either. Guess human feelings are just too complicated to be understood.

A sense of Betrayal...

I have been betrayed. I have not really make the situation clear but with what little information i know, i felt it, the dreaded sense of being betrayed by someone close. I know that I should never jump to conclusions, there must be a reason why he does this. However, I just can't help feeling a gushing sense of anger trying to erupt. What should I do? Scold him? Ask him? Or forget the whole thing and never trust him anymore? I felt so angry, because I trusted him so much.
I kept his secret like a mystery never to be known to others, I was tempted to tell, to gossip, but I didn't. When he shared it with me, I was really so happy, because I favor the thought that he treat me as a true friend and trusted me. Therefore, I trusted him and told him one of my secret just to be fair. I made him promise never to tell anyone. He said yes. I should have known better. He was a blab. A gossip. Whenever there are hot gossips, he would sure to be the one to know.
How did I know he cannot keep his promise? Well, my friend, just a little information for you, the world is a very small place, and one after another person, the gossip would soon be back in my own ears. Though it is not really a VERY big secret, but I learnt my lesson.Never trust anyone with secrets that you do not want others to know.
I have never trusted anyone with my deepest secret before, because I am afraid. Deep down, I am really afraid. And this is exactly what I am afraid of. Did he ever treat me as a true friend? OR am I just another source of gossip for him? Taking notes of my every word and telling everybody about it...Do you ever think about me when you blab? My hurt feelings when I know? I really misread you my friend, guess I could only blame myself for trusting you, but let me tell you something, the moment you open your mouth and spill out my secret, you can kiss my trust GOODBYE.

Time Travelling...

Have you readers ever watched the japanese series titled 'Proposal Daisakusen' before? See the picture above, in the story, the guy, second right, regrets that he was not able to marry the girl that he has liked since high school (the one beside him) because he did not confess his love to her. So, during the girl's marriage, he wished and wished that he could go back to the past to change it. Guess what? He got his wish. Apparently, the God in the movie gave him the power to return to the past, but there is a catch. He can only return to the time when the pictures shown were taken, and be it good or bad, he has the chance to take the picture one more time. So, as a result, he tried and tried, one picture after another, and he blew his chances again and again, Until the last photo, he asked the girl a question, "Have you ever done anything you regret in life before?" And the girl said, "Yes, but without the past, there is no me today." After hearing that, the boy decided to dropped the intention of changing the past. And as for what happened in the end, you readers really have to watch it yourself to know!!
After finishing this movie, i really ponder a lot. What the girl said was really reasonable. We always think that, oh, how i wish i hadn't done this in the past. Oh, i regret doing this, oh i regret doing that. However, have you guys ever thought that having taken that wrong step or doing that wrong action, we are actually contributing to what we are now? Without learning those painful lessons, can we face the world and challenges as we can right now? Can we think like how we think right now?
For me, i think that past will always be the past, like we always said, been there done that. Right now, our future is what really matters because we still have the power to decide what we want our future to form into. Have a dream that never become reality? Have someone that you loved dearly but never let the him or her know your true feelings? Don't hesitate, as time waits for no one. It is better to take the risk because these are actually what spices life up! What is life without a little risk? Without the things that unfold gradually without our knowing? There are a lot of things that i regret in life but after learning my lessons, i can say one thing...Come what may, I am ready for you again, Life.

Another Crossroad...

Yet another crossroad of my life. It seems like ages since i have to decide what major i would take and which university i will go to. Now, after completing my second year, i have to make another decision on which university in the UK i will complete my final year in.
Actually, i have already decided on the University of Sunderlands since i have friends there and it is on the outskirt so living costs won't be as expensive as compared to London. However, today, the university placement consultant of my school told me that when i study accounting and finance, both the subjects of audit and taxation are really important and neither Oxford Brookes nor Sunderlands offer these subjects. And she told me that the only school which accepts final year transfer students and offers these two subjects is Middlesex University located in London.
Now, that got me really confused. If it is as said that these two subjects are important, why doesn't Oxford Brookes or Sunderlands include it in their syllabus? What would happen to the students studying there then? I am really undecided now because i have made plans to go to Sunderlands, and now along this bomb came and ruined everything for me. Can anybody tell me what should i do?? Are there any professionals out there who could help me?
I hate making decisions, especially ones that my future is dependant on. This is because one misstep could change my future forever, and i only have one life to live so i want to live it to the fullest...what should i do??? I really feel like screaming right now! Help!!!!

Elections!!!

Yesterday was our school's election for student representative. Actually i never planned to go and vote since it is tedious work and plus i am lazy, as usual, haha! Anyway, what happened was, i had a change of mind, and together, with my friend, we trotted off towards the president hall where the voting was held.
When we got there, what happened was, we faced a big problem. When we were given the ballot to vote, we don't even know half of the names written there, imagine that! I whispered to my friend, "Hey, who are you voting for? I don't even recognise them, how am i even suppose to vote??" Then, we ended up ticking all the chinese names and familiar names that we saw on the paper. I guess we are being biased, but it is not like we have a choice, we don't even know who they are @.@
So, i was thinking...what happened to all those campaigning? Do they think that just by hanging silly banners around and having typical slogans like 'One person, one mission', or 'Let me be your voice!!' is going to help them gather votes? This is the worst campaigning and voting that i had ever seen. They need to convince us! To make us really believe that they are able to handle that responsibility! Not give us silly promises like faster internet, more provisions for the library to buy books, lowering of visa price, blah blah blah! To me, i will think that it is all nonsense unless i see some actions because every candidate seems to say the same thing. Boring!
So, today the results are out. And guess what? The people who are elected are those same faces again. Hmm, expected it, i guess. Due to the fact that nowadays most of the school elections are mostly based on popularity and not true skills and that. We, the sideliners are always afraid to enter this kind of things, so it always ended up being those people who are always seen and loud.
So, who is there to blame when this happens? Everyone has an equal chance to nominate themselves but is it true that everyone will also have an equal chance to win?

A Simple Poem

Hey guys ~ wrote a little something about this funny photo that i took with my 'friend' at the airport while i was waiting for my flight, we were both running trying to catch up with the camera before the click...

Time passes by
by Laetitia Chung
We laugh, we cry, we run,
Fate brought us together,
but Time wants to break us apart.
Time is like a one-hundred meter runner,
forever running so fast,
we ran behind, reaching out,
but never have been able to touch more than the sleeve of Time.
"Stop!" we shouted.
All we wanted was one moment more,
but we never got an answer from Time,
apart from a faint echo.
So, now, we have no choice,
but to succumb to Time,
because 'we' will soon be no more...
as 'we' are slipping out of the picture,
Get ready for one last smile, one last laugh,
may this be our best ever,
as our hands slipped from grip,
Goodbye My Love...